*Smiling*.. still after everything going on

I'm all dressed up today in my Red Dress...for those of you who don't know I rarely wear dresses.. but I've lost a lil weight, so I'm feeling a lil sexy. lol Anyway, this is where I'm at today. I'm alive... I have a car.. a good job, a smart kid... a place to live. I'm thankful... even if I don't have a man. I have to be realistic. I have several conversations with him and it seems like he is trying to string me along on this mind game for his own personal satisfaction. I'm not going to play it anymore. I love him. I miss him. But I'm not going to beg or lower my own morale for his gratification. I honestly believe he has no plans on trying to get back together.. I really believe the ex factor is back in the picture. or he's met someone online.. but it's cool... I'm not gonna stress anymore. I made the effort to show him I cared and I was sorry for the part I played in all of this. That's all I can do.. now it's time to heal. Back to being Cherise.. Did ya'll miss me???