It's Sunday...

I haven't had much sleep but I guess I can attribute that to all that is on my mind. My sister has caused so much drama in my life... she decided to be an identity theive and use our address to receive the goods... She was even so stupid as to use her first intial and REAL last name.. which happens to be the same as mine. So not only have I had to deal with the police, but I've had to clean up her mess too... She is lucky I haven't turned her into the police... since I'm no snitch! Anyway, that is only adding onto my grief over Aaron. Yesterday he really let me have it. I was completely devastated and then finally realized after several cuts later that it didn't matter what I said or what I did he wasn't coming back and we're not going to have the family that I'd hoped for. I've conceded I think. Accepted and I'm out of denial. He can have his life. I won't interfere. I will however be jealous, angry, hurt and AlONE for a long time to come... IF nothing else at least I'm losing weight. I ate a yogurt today & I'm going to have a sandwich in a little while... HEY! it's a start . I haven't really been eating much. I got out of the house today.. I shopped. I bought some shoes and blouse for the party Satuday. I also copped some sexy new bra's ( ha! like it matters... no one here to see them)
Last nite I talked on the phone to my friend.. He was a big help for a minute.. but then the conversation ended and I was back to the silence that surrounds me called HOME. MarQuin was @ a friends last nite.. and he doesn't want to be bothered with a depressed Mom anyway!! I went to WalMart as well.. bought some fruit and pastrami.. ice tea and a picture frame. It was so Hot I felt like I was going to melt. Tomorrow when I wake up I'm going to smile. No matter how sad or depressed I am .. I will smile.