It seems like forever since the first day I met you. I remember that day like it was yesterday. Red hair... cold stares and laughter following... Do u know what that means? If you KNOW me then you do. I'm writing this b/c I haven't had you in my thoughts for 45 days 11 hrs and 26 seconds. Hmmmm.
Life has moved on since you and I.
I used to cry back then............. all those lonely nights I wished for you to be by my side. I had a song for every moment we spent together. Crazy huh? You thought so. Every minute seemed like an eternity to me. I can admit now that I was in Love with you. But it wasn't the kind of love I have now for Aaron. It was a desperate love. A longing love. A selfish love. You came into my life when my heart was sunk to it's lowest depth... U rescued me and brought me back to life. I was just too blind then to understand that it was nothing more than that. Instead you became my living respirator... I depended on you for every bit oxygen that sustained my body. When I look back on that now I feel sick. I want to formally apologize to you. I put too much responsibility on you. Things are different now. Someone asked me do I miss you because of the friendship we had or because I couldn't have you. That was interesting to me. I miss you because you were you. No matter what your private life entailed.. when it counted you were there and my friend. Late at nite when my anxiety attacks plagued me .. YOU WERE THERE. When I begged and pleaded for someone to ride to Cali all those crazy weekends you were there. We all have flaws. We all have issues. But you were my friend. And maybe I dug too deep looking for things better left buried. I'm different today. I fell in love with love. Real love. Not something made up in my head that I fantasize about every day. Part of the reason why I love Aaron the way I do is you. You helped me see reality. This time the love is returned. And Joe, I do believe that you loved me. Still do. I miss laughing with u. I miss going out with u. Most of all I just miss YOU. Hope all is well with you,
Peace, Reesie
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Hey ma!
Great letter...did you send it?
yea
looka hear ma! Email me before I have to catch a flight and a case...
He will not keep hurting you!:)
Did that make you smile?
I'm going to join the Mr. Wiley beat down team. Tell me where the meet up is DeeDee.
Hey he's not Aaron.. lol lol lol He used to be my best friend.. LONG STORY! U would have go back to April 2005 "Random Idioms, Joe!!" Aaron has been good this last week. We're getting it together. Just an FYI there are 2 babies inside of me.. Trip out on that! I have to go see this specialist on Wednesday. My cervix isn't holding up too well.
Call The Police! WTH? Did I miss the memo?
Forget the email...Call me damn it!
Great news Ma!...right?
Wow - twins?! How precious. I wish you nothing but the best sweetheart.
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