Unfounded Expectations...

It's all my fault.. thinking that bringing him here would change everything. He meaning Aaron. I was going to bring him here for the weekend.We've had some pretty ggood conversations and we both miss each other like crazy ( not to mention I haven't had sex since March... he says the same, but I doubt it.) I had some reservations about this because he told me he didn't have ANY money. I know he works and supposedly he is bringing in more than me and I pay out WAY more than him. $800 for rent.. $277 for my car.. $118 for insurance.. NOT including my utilities...and I still have money left...But anyway, I said I would pay for his gas. Something inside of my soul is telling me that it ain't right. The way he talks to me.. or doesn't talk to me.. all these women online.. ( I still know) I'm lost. BUT, when I think about it honestly, logically, truthfully.... I'm being selfish. I don't want him to be with anyone else. I don't want to let him go. I don't want to move on. I want to stay right where I am .. where it's comfortable. I understand that is NOT where I belong.