BREATHE CHERISE BREATHE....

This has been the longest weekend of my life. Well, at least in my most recent life.. lol I had company from out of town this weekend. A long time friend, Terri of whom I've known almost 20 yrs of my life. Now she is a great friend, but everyone has their faults. Her's being that she is a complainer...I mean about everything!! IF the kids fight she is ready to go...if someone said something to her 5 yrs ago she remembers and she let's u know she remembers. The reason I'm bringing all of this up is b/c I have another friend, Trechelle. Her and Terri were friends in the past. I've known Terri much longer and when Trechelle and I became friends...me being Cherise, tried to bring everyone together as one big happy group... for awhile it worked... (notice I said for awhile) Anyhow, a few years back there was a rumor that Terri was bi-sexual. I don't know who said it and I don't care. However, it came back that Trechelle said it. Well, Terri has never gotten over it. To some degree Terri is very cold. She doesn't have any feelings for other's not in her inner circle. Trechelle on the other hand doesn't hold grudges, although she has her faults too. Over the years I have been there for Trechelle probably more than some of my own sisters. She is like a sister to me.. I love her children and I was devasted when her younger son died last August. I was there when he took his last breath.. I am always there. A lot of my friends and family resent that. Trechelle and I have a lot in common. Trechelle is friendly, outgoing and very easy to talk to, but she is also very irresponsible at times (as we all are periodically) but she stands out a lot because she is ALWAYS going thru some type of drama...mostly because of her own mistakes. I recently had to make a decision to step away and let her be on her own. That was hard for me. I've also acquired new friends, all of whom are gay. Trechelle doesn't relate well to that. She doesn't even know that I am bi. That is one subject I have never touched bases on with her. The reason being b/c I don't feel comfortable doing so. Anyhow, when I had Terri here this weekend I figured I would get some flack and boy did I !! Trechelle decided out of the blue that she wanted to come to Willie's party. I didn't even bother inviting her b/c she #1. didn't care for Willie and #2. She doesn't make it a habit to hang out with gay people. That would be like me taking Aaron to the party... LMAO.. Now, there were all types of people there, but there was mainly gay MEN.. and u know how they get down.. there were strippers and all that.. lol BUT back to my issues... Terri doesn't like Trechelle. She feels she uses me and takes advantage of me.... Trechelle really doesn't care for Terri, but has tolerated her over the years. I moved here to Vegas with Trechelle, so I think that made Terri feel even more alienated.... Now that Terri has become a part of my inner circle and my "other" friends love her... Trechelle feels left out... So how do I feel??? Like a rubberband...if they pull any harder I'm going to snap. This weekend I had to duck and dodge my friend...and listen to this one complain about this and that one complain about that. Yesterday I was at my wits end with everyone. So I just kept everyone seperate, but that's not much fun. I wish Black Women could get along, but we all know how we are at times...((Sigh)) Oh well********************************************************************************************************* I seen Joe yesterday... Why does he have a new car exactly like mine.. I really can't stand him. I missed a good movie b/c of him & I don't even know why. I just can't breathe when I see him. Aaron and I had a little arguement yesterday. Maybe he doesn't understand that I miss him... I need him.. I love him and I'm horny.. lol I know he has to do what he has to do..I've already accepted that... I wish he could just accept me for who I am and stop trying to make me out to be something I am not. Well, I am very sleepy... I just ate so I'm not hungry anymore and I'm irritable, so I guess I will end this now... PEace