Yesterday was mad crazy...............I mean, the customer's were off da chain!! I was so busy I couldn't think straight, not to mention I came in @ 7am and I didn't get to bed until almost 11pm. I was irritable and tired by Noon. It's safe to say it wasn't a great day! Moving forward, I had the most disturbing conversation with Aaron yesterday. Honestly, I don't even want to entertain it with anymore detail than that...let's just say it wasn't flattering. I'm at a point now where I am ok with being alone. There are times when I wake up and I need him and then there are other times when I hate him. He doesn't understand me. It appears that he doesn't even want to. I know I'm not perfect and I am quite sure I have hurt him deeply, but in all fairness to me he needs to accept responsibility for his actions. There isn't anyone that was more dear to my heart than him, but he was too busy comparing himself to everyone else in my life that he was too blind to see! Partly I am to blame for this. As of right now I'm tired of explaining myself to him and justifying who am I. For once, I just want to be normal. You know, work...come home...cook...be a mom,...ect.... No drama like car chases...fighting...throwing candles...screaming...sleepless nights... I just want to be normal..............................................................................................................!!!!!!
Speaking of normal..I called myself bowling last nite. I KNEW I was tired..I worked 11 1/2
hours, but I didn't want to go home...It's so empty there. My son already was out at a friends house and my sister was cooped up in the room, as usual. So I decided I would go. We went in a fairly large group ....6 adults and 2 kids... And I had a ball.. you know I was with my babies..lol Willie, Nakia, Jamal and Scooey. Being out with them is sure to get me in trouble. lol Of course I lost coming in 4th place, but I had a good time. So I didn't get home until after 11pm and you know what that means....
I didn't get here until almost 9am... I was supposed to be here @ 6am to get my 4 hours of OT, but it didn't happen! lol I laid in my bed and didn't move when that alarm went off. I couldn't move. And Willie just kept calling me, that bitch! lol Fucking up what little intimacy I get..................................... In my dreams. I'm shooooo NOT getting any from any other source. (*wink*) unless u know about my toys, but does that count?? I think I'm getting sexually frustrated... ((sigh)) Oh well, it will pass as do all things.... Be back later. PEACE
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