I ain't the one...

I've worked too many fucking hours this week.PERIOD. I am tired. Hungry. Horny.TIRED.HORNY. Just fucking tired, so yesterday when my son called me and said, "Momma, there are 2 guys sitting @ your table eating hamburgers and the house is smokey."
I almost fell the fuck out! You may wonder WHY there were 2 men sitting in my house when I am clearly @ work! Well, for the past 2 months my 20 yr old sister, Jessica has been living with me. I thought I'd set the rules clear when she came. 1. $250 a month, plus contribute to food and toiletries 2. NO one in my house! 3. Clean up your own mess
So far none of these rules have been upheld. The funny part is I feel like my mother. Thinking back to all the conversations we've had over the years and all the advice that she's given and I that I refused to take heed to... I think Maybe now this is karma's way of kicking me in the ass! I decided to let her come here because no one else wanted to deal with her. She is 20 yrs old w/o a high school diploma..she doesn't have any children...basically, her life could be a lot different. She has the opportunity and the means to do so much and I don't want to see her hurt. But when I looked at her last nite...she reminded me so much of myself. I told her the life she is living is a road to nowhere. All the men and the staying out late nites is only going to lead down one of 2 roads....WE all KNOW where they go. I realized after having a long conversation with my Mom last nite, that I can only change and work on me. As much as I like to dictate the right way to live to everyone else, it is not my place. I have my own issues and problems that I am working on. I have to take care of my son & myself for once. So I walked away. She only has one more chance. Then I am done regardless of how cruel that may sound.... be back later