March 27, 2005

Is it over yet....

So he moved back to Cali this weekend...not before confirming that I am the most evil and selfish woman walking the earth. The sad part is I kept my composure until the very end...and then I broke down..Sadly enough, I love this man with all his faults and mistakes that he's made and I didn't want to see him go... Although, I know it is the best thing for us both... There was absolutely nothing positive about our relationship...all the fighting and arguing...all the name calling was simply draining my soul...his as well...

Anyhow, I get an im yesterday from him...NOW, he's like, Well, I love you...I really want a family with u...boy I wish u could slap someone thru the pc...Why does he do this? Why? Less than 48 hrs ago he was yelling and screaming that it was over...he was tired of me. I ceased to exist once he left Nevada and entered cali....damn. I knew this would happen. I have to stand my ground this time, no matter how hard the pain stings. For 3 years we've been on this battlefield called a relationship, with nothing to show.. Except for my bruises and broken hearts...He must know that I'm confused....he must know this only makes things worse. (SIGH) The Saga continues.... I read a quote the other day that really made me think...

"Don't complain about what you accept"

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

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