Mood Swings...

Lately I've noticed my moods changing a lot (more than usual) Things that really didn't bother me before are really starting to piss me off... So I will just go thru the list of bullshit that ticks me off...
#1. I loaned out some money to a close friend over 2 wks ago...
her car was repo'd among other things..she just had a baby & her good for nothing nigga does nothing. I am sickened by this situation because she is a good person, but it seems like she chooses dead beats as mates...I want her to have the best & I always have. I've ALWAYS been there for her no matter what...I've even lost other friendships because of it. Now I believe it's time for me to stop trying to save her & everyone else who seems to think that I just have it like that! I don't. What makes me even more upset is that she knows I pay & do everything alone..she hasn't even mentioned the money...she hasn't answered my text's message's, but then she calls me this morning like nothing happened and ask's me to turn on the phone for her ( i work for the phone co) That pisses me off!!!
#2. These motha fucca's @ work piss me off. I feel like most people here are 2 faced. They're always in your business. I've really worked hard on trying to develop a good rapport with all the sup's here. I recently applied for a lead position...still waiting on the decision...but there are so many hating ass bitches here...nigga's are bitches too... in particular..one new boy...
first he was sending me little love emails...(which I ignored)then I had to correct him the other day & he started acting like a little ass bitch. Rollin his eyes...just acting like a little kid... Then I go back and forth on a daily basis with nakia & willie...mostly over stupid shit...but that shit gets on my nerves. I want to go back to school. I am tired of working for someone else. I need to cultivate my gift and stop bullshitting..ALL this get's on my nerves too...
#3. Aaron... he get's on my nerves b/c he doesn't know how to talk without yelling..he also likes to talk about other people but when you talk about him or his family he gets a fucked up attitude...Also, he is not very neat and that shit gets on my nerves.///

#5. My period won't come// that is a whole notha issue.... but that shit gets on my nerves b/c I feel like I'm in a never-ending pms cyclone!

#6.this bitch ass nigga that i used to chat with occassionally on bp.(I wasn't gonna mention this but what the hell) Anyway, he has hit me up a few times. I intially sent him a note b/c I thought his page was interesting. He constantly wanted me to come and see him,but I always declined..something just ain't right about a man that seems desperate. Anyhow,yesterday he hits me up & asks me what clubs are hot in Vegas...Now, I'm not anything close to a club hopper... Majority of the clubs I hit up are gay clubs...WHY? Because all of my friends are gay!!
So I relay this to him....He replies.... "Oh! So u are a switchhitter?" I'm offended now...So I respond, "I'm bi-sexual...I have been all of my life". Then the conversation goes totally to the left... He says, "I didn't know lesbians liked big gurls".....Ohhhhhh Hell naw... Yes I am a "big gurl" I am 5'10...19something...but by no means am I desperate..lonely or FAT! All this time I am at work. I'm thinking wtf is up with this guy. He's not even cute...I hit him up b/c I thought he was someone that had some type of intelligence..NOOOOTTT ...................SO then he proceeds to tell me how he owns this and that...has no children...and I'm still thinking wtf is your point buddy? So I told him point blank...FUCK YOU! Stop sending me Im's you desperate ass bitch! I don't care about all the material name dropping you are doing...if you have to talk about it then you probably don't have it...if memory serves me right he told me he has 2 roommates,was a student & worked part-time... lol lol Sounds real promising and successful. I was very irritated. I blocked him from sending me IM's, but I didn't even get his angle...was he upset b/c I said I was bi-sexual...was he upset b/c I never initiated any contact. Whatever the case may be I knew the guy had issues because he was one of those " I don't usually date black women" motha fucca's.
ya'll feel me??/
That had me pissed for a hot minute....