FU Ck you... unconditional love!

I'm angry, hurt and happyWhy?U said that was her.,.. beauty in the photothe object of your now "Unconditional" love,but what happened to that love when you raised your hand to my face or wrapped your fingers around my throat in a blind filled rage?does she know that u loosely use the words bitch or hoeoh my bad.. .according to you... that was something that you've never had to do before me.which brings me back to everything..... that's transpired.Did u mention to her that you're a habitual liar...or maybe she believes this is all my fault...crazy ass fat girl stalking prince charming...Chasing strippers, getting pregnant while proclaiming my love.stupid girl... once again that's me.. or cherise...reesephatty... whatever u choose to call me.. Now, I understand the reasons behind your so called indifferenceYou're a joke....!!! making a mockery of my life and calling itdeliverence.. FUck You... And fuck her too...ya'll deserve each other... a baby... maybe two.. a house in the hills... and once you finish school... you'll become that big time lawyerwe discussed on many of dates. I can't fucking believe u.I'm laughing. Wait... or am I crying...I'm cutting my.......self off from you... becoming filled with hate, which is something I didn't wanna do.I can't think straight. Shit I cannot even write.. I just ramble and scrambleto make myself better...Than her.but I already am or have taken that journey down the path to nowhere only to find myself at the crossroads leading somewhereother than here.it's over.I see it now.I seen it then.back to square one again.How can I ever have love in my heart for another.I want to smother all of my emotions.away from my heart. kill themtake them a part.out of my soulnever to hurt like this... or feel this pain.or stab them until they bleed away.I fucking HATE YOU!BUt I love you,i'm confused.... i wanna kill her and them .. all of them.because they shouldn't have you... or your love.or your childrenor your time.im suppressed and confined in this dungeonof persecution.Living life in my dreams....reality a nightmare ...and it seems you don't comprehendwhat it does to me or you just don't care...to watchme suffer.over. and over.drowning in this sea of rejection.what happened to your protection.FUck you.. do u hear me?FUck you and me too!it's over for us ...it over for you.We're through.Are we?