"And when we had our 1st kiss.. it happened on a Thursday...."

My crush is manifesting itself in a real way. This man is on my mind..
in my dreams and becoming a part of my life in a real way. His name is Kai.
He is about 6'3, his skin resembles smooth, dark chocolate. And his body, well
let's just say it speaks for itself. I met him about 4 months ago. I was actually
the 1st person he came in contact with before he was hired. (lucky him)
Anyhow, he was running late for his interview and I let him in the door.
I noticed him at that moment and ever since then... well, I've been crushing on
him. For awhile, I just watched him silently. Never approached him or spoke to him.
That's why having him in my living room last night was almost like a dream.


It was about a month before I got up enough courage to approach him. So I did
via e-mail. That started what he refers to as our, "verbal jousting". For weeks,
we exchanged e-mails back and forth about various topics. So during this informal
courtship we developed a cool relationship... then the worst thing happened.
I found out he'd dated another co-worker, whom I've become friends with. They have
broken up for about 2 years... so, what should I do?


I will tell you what my selfish ass did... I had him on my couch last night. My
head gently resting on his chest. I settled for a kiss on the check instead ...
I'm not in the business to hurt anyone... but it doesn't feel wrong when I am with
him. It feels like we belong together.