June 27,1995 at 1:31am... Long beach community Hospital...
I was 19. scared. ..cold.. and in a lot of pain. I was also
thristy as hell. (lol) After 23 hours in labor HE was finally here. My baby boy.
He was blue. I remember the doctors working on him... he wasn't breathing.
Then he took his first breath.. and I heard him cry.
They wrapped him up and brought him to me with the funniest looking
hat on... Even then he had his own personality..
He looked up at me with one eye open and smiled.
I knew this was MY child.
I remember looking him over... trying to find anything
thing I could that would tie him to me. So far, he had
a chubby,little face and his father's nose. He didn't have
much hair or any eye-brows. I looked him over several times and
then I noticed his hands. They were just like mine. The lines
ran along his tiny hand in an exact replica of my own.
I never loved anyone the way I loved this baby.
I took him home one week later and I held him all the time. I loved
this little person that was an extension of myself. My baby. My love.
I would tell him everyday, "I love you more than the whole wide world!"
He was amazed with me even when I was less than thrilled with myself.
I remember holding him in my arms and telling him, one day
you will be too big for me to hold.. one day you won't want
to be in my arms... one day you will go on your own..
(Today happened to be "One Day")
Soon after... time transformed my helpless little soul into a playful,
energetic child. He grew in leaps and bounds and now here I sit,
watching my baby make his transistion into adolesence. I want to
cry, but I'm so proud of him. He's come a long way through all of
our trials and tribulations growing up together. Essentially,
he's been my best friend. At the end of the day when I'm sad,
abused, mean, happy, or tired.. I'm still just mom and he loves
me no matter what. I haven't always been my best and I know this,
but I love that boy... More than he knows and more than I will
ever understand.
3 comments:
Where does the time go....how wonderful congrats!
Awwww! This post makes me want to cry! Beautifully written as always.
This gave me the goose bumps! Awww, that was so precious.. I had a lump in my throat... VERY well expressed!
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