A Poem. "The Truth is..."

( I don't wanna be with you)


You left me. Remember?
Then WE came back together.
I... Begging and Cryin'
You...Smilin' and Lyin'

Circumstances.
Tryin- to get the best of me.
See, We were apart before
we ever came together,
WE had to be Apart,
BEFORE we could come together.

We lasted four seasons
until the rain. THEN
Tears began to fall...
a painful disdain,
Yes it's painful.
Beyond my scope of tolerance.

Again, back to the rain.
Will the sting fade away
when the storms goes about it way?

You walked away, "It's too late!",
You said!

Now, Spring has arrived.
Flowers are in full bloom,
yet our LOVE continues to
wither away.

I'm trying to revive or save this
one last pedal... hoping to regrow
what used to be.
Will the sun save my dying
destiny?

I can't CHANGE or I WON'T change!
Nothing satisfies YOU.

Will it ever change?
The yelling.
I'm screaming.
Emotions out of control.
I'm out of control.
Listen.
Listen.
Please.
No more resistance.
You won't listen.
We DON'T listen.
.....................YOU DON'T CARE!


Am I outta love?
What happened to your patience?
I'm hiding in the closet.
You're down in the basement...
Wishing I'd give up this charade and
walk out of your life.

I'm punishing myself.
You don't love me.
"Don't go ok",
Remember that day, when you sent
this text?
it was the day after you said
"I love you" then retorted with
"I hate you" all in the same
breath.

What's the TRUTH?
"I don't wanna be with you",
you say.
Are you fucking kidding me?

I walked barefoot-
Thru the FIRE.
BURNED- but I still walked.
NO!
I RAN. Fast!
Into your arms.
Seeking your protection.

Unshaken by my pleas for love.
You said,
"I never asked you to come back!"
You never asked me to?
Since when did LOVE require asking?
You repeated,
"I never asked you to come back!"


I closed my eyes. I don't trust you.
Or this.
The truth is ....
I don't REALLY wanna be with YOU.


Then you kissed me good-bye.