Now I'm a little irritated...

All day I've been emailing him... no response.. I was a little concerned, so I called at lunch.. He answered and said he took the day off. Instead of my usual routine of asking 1000 questions and making accusing statements.. I ended the convo quick!! But, I'm still thinking to myself WHY would he take the day off after I leave??? Why not have taken a day off when I was still there? You know my mind has a vivid imagination... umm hmmm and usually my first intuition is right.. Doesn't make sense to me at all.. ((SIGH)) some things will NEVER change no matter how bad I want them too. I've learned we can't make people be the way we want them to be. Honestly, really... truthfully I think Aaron loves me. BUT I don't think he wants me. I think he wants someone smaller... younger... and more controllable.. these are however.. JUST my random.. insignificant thoughts.. which mean nothing to anyone except me! I'm gonna cry now because there is nothing else I can do. I hate being here in Nevada all by myself. I hate this situation I've created and worst of all I hate all the hoodrats, hoes, hoochies... and so forth that are publicly auctioning off their pussies online to any tom, dick and harry....(that was just another random thought too and has nothing to do with this particular blog or does it?) What a fool I can be sometimes... I am my worst enemy.................((SIGH)) and today was such a good day. One day, ya'll I promise I will learn my lesson!!!