The lists Keep coming...

For Aaron.. Now I pay too much attention




I'm on the verge of tears right now
who's right
who's wrong
he says he loves me
but he's not willing to give me anymore than that
should I wait
maybe I should leave
he doesn't understand
I hate being alone
no one else will suffice
I still have secrets
i'm sure he does too
some secrets should never be revealed
others hold you hostage
he said I'm holding him hostage
he wants to be free
he wants to be free of me?
I don't know how to live w/o him
is that bad?
what's wrong with me?
can't i just snap out of it?
How do u snap outta love?
I won't be with another man
I tried that twice
remember
it was a disaster
I'm a disaster.
I want to go away
I wish I could take all this back
too many tears
like hurricane cherise
except i'm the only one being victimized
I'm only hurting myself
by holding on
i should let go
i don't want him to forget me
I'm still moving to cali
too many thoughts
empty time
nothing will be the same
it thought we'd made progress
why do i feel so used?
he treated me good
i think he loves me
he doesnt like when i blog about him
i dont care
i wont cut myself
i promise
ok teej
dont worry
I still have my cds
maybe they will help
im gonna cry
at any minute
yup
tears are watering as we speak
people are looking,
I'm just lost.
I think I will close down my bp page
refocus and get my writing together
maybe that will help
fuck the therapist
she's a jerk.
so is he.
he's happy w/o me
that is depressing
I'm depressing.
Peace out