Tis the season...

Is it me or did the holiday season come barging in like a deranged home invader? I could've sworn it was just July and I was at the BET awards partying it up! Sigh, needless to say I am not particularly happy nor looking forward to said Holiday season. While everyone gets ready to celebrate a day of giving thanks, I (or we, my sister's and I) will be marking the one year anniversary of our Mothers Death. Sucks ass, I know. She died on THANKSGIVING day, so what the hell do I have to give thanks for? While I could move forward with my bah humbug spirit I have to remember this is NOT what our mother would've wanted, in fact, she was the epitome of the spirit. She always decorated her house and cooked for us every year. Now we are faced with the task of WHO will take over her role. By my being the oldest, it would be natural for me to assume the role, however I am NOT always a people type of person. I relish in my privacy and I'm not always open to letting everyone into that sanctuary. Needless to say, I MUST try to move forward positively for my family. I am focused on making the BEST out of a sad time of year for us... and I hold steady that my mother is near watching and guiding us!